So it's one of those nights again when you have got a BIG, GINORMOUS amount of syllabus to cover for tomorrow's crucial exam ( which you HAVE to pass to maintain your internal assessment). You delayed it till the last night with all those "oh it's doable", "hojaye ga yaar". And now it just feels too much :/ You look at your phone one last time only to find that your favourite Avengers movie was going to be released today! Aaaaah! The gut wrenching painful moment when you decide to choose the syllabus over the premier... but you do it.
Okay now you have finally managed to have a clear mind. All the rest is blocked out. No more distractions. Limited time. Heart pounding. Gotta focus. Yes you got this. Just as you start to read those alien words on the very first page, your mum walks in telling you that the whole family is going out for dinner and they'd be back by midnight. Oh great! here you are stuck with these ugly chunky books while your family is partying out. But it's okay right?! And you start consoling yourself that no pains, no gains.., so you reopen the book, feeling a little hungry and a little agitated by the luck of your exam date. And as soon as you you start to read those pages and all those foreign concepts and new terms start hitting you right in the face, you realize all this burden is not humanly possible to e covered in one night. A silent scream builds up inside but you suppress it because you are stronger than your situation. Maybe you can do it if luck is on your side and all nighters really are your cup of tea.
Then comes another setback! Your friend texts you with the infamous question "Kitna kar liya" and your meed answer gives them absurd confidence to proclaim that they have already covered more than two thirds of the syllabus. And THAT serves as the final blow to shatter your resolution and you throw yourself over the books, exasperated, hands up in the air and hit the rock bottom of that depressive feeling. "It can't be done, I'm hopeless, It's a gone story" - these all too familiar phrases seem more than true in that moment...
The above mentioned scenarios may seem familiar as most of us go through these countless times especially if we have chosen to study the arduous degree of Medicine. A lot of sacrifices. A lot of patience. And a lot of perseverance to make it to the end of five years. But let me tell you that in those moments when waves of anxiety and panic start rolling over hopelessness lingers on top as a dark cloud and time is not on your side. YOU HOLD ON AND KEEP THOSE NERVES CALM. Yes, it may sound difficult, even impossible but you have to hold on! Hold on to the reason that made you choose this career. Hold on to the faith and strength that you have shown during various events in your life; be it personal, social or study hurdles. Believe in the power of the Almighty Allah and repeat the mantra to yourself that if He brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Sometimes its really hard, your health is not okay or you are mentally depressed or the loss of a loved one, broken relationships or even the loss of precious time that got wasted because of other matters. But whatever it is, no matter how big of a problem, your human mind is bigger and better! Trust in your capabilities, you still have the spark in you, the same one that made you bright enough to make it to the med school! Keep the end in mind and know that like everything in life, this too shall pass... and trust me THE WORLD WILL NOT END WHEN IT DOES! You might have to work harder or appear in an exam again or in extreme cases might even have to repeat but there is a bigger picture that Allah sees and we don't! We just see a pixel only.
So the next time you are facing a situation like this, focus on the bright future, your goals, your reasons, be optimistic, don't panic and hold on to hope. There is so much more to life than these temporary panic situations. Once they are over, you'll taste the sweetness of freedom and it will seem very distant. Fading away in the rear view mirror of your life. So breathe, relax, pick yourself up and start again!
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